Reflections

I think I'll take a day break from the heavy topics and just reflect. I'm sitting on the couch in the living room looking out the picture window at all the snow and drinking a cup of hot chocolate. This snow was a God send. It gave us a much needed snow day, and I needed a mental health day. Lately I've been thinking about life and the road I'm on. To sum up where we are at in Sam's Life Story: I was born in 1993, the location and date are not needed. My parents got divorced when I was about three, and they were both remarried to different people by the time I was five. Mom and Stepfather have a daughter who is nine, and Dad and Stepmom have two daughters ages seven and five. I am one of two boys on my dad's side of the family, which is kinda crazy. I was a generally happy kid, life was different, but it was all cool. Sixth grade was hard, but I'm not here to whine about my life when there are people who live off a dollar a day. Anyway, I moved to my current location in the summer that I was to start middle school. That summer I joined a swim team, and even though I was terrible, I got better really fast and developed a love for it. Middle school is fairly uneventful, but I a lot of it seems blurred by the next part: my grandmother's battle with cancer. She fought breast cancer for ten years before she was called to Heaven and rescued from her pain. The remarkable part? She NEVER complained. Never "Why me?" or "What did I do to deserve this?" Just a smile and a joke. She was hands down the strongest person I've ever met, even if she was only four foot eleven. She past away a year and two months ago and not a day goes by where I don't think about her. She was such a remarkable person, that I find it hard to believe that she is gone. Her house feels so very empty, and it's not spotless like she kept it. I actually went over there with my cousins and cleaned it because I could see some dust. She kept the place immaculate. That house and her family were her pride and joy.

When I went to my concert last week, Of Mice and Men played a remarkable song called "Second & Sebring." I loved the song when I first heard it, and now that I've done my research I find the song even more amazing. Jaxin Hall's clean lyrics are fantastic, and Austin Carlile (former frontman of Attack Attack!) is at his greatest in this track.

So with that, I think I'm going to do some reading, we're reading Fallen Angels by Walter Dean Myers in Modern Literature, and I'm severely behind.

I'm leaving you with the lyrics to Second & Sebring, as well as a link to download their self titled album, out March 9th.

Second & Sebring
I believe its time for me to be famous,
and out of place.
I believe its time for me to move for forward,
when I break through.

This time I'll, make you,

Proud to see me over, come all day life.

Proud of, who you raised.

Your shelter, your peacefulness.

So this time I'll make you proud.

Proud of, who you raised up.
You know that I will,
always be here till' the end.

Come back so I can say thank you for this,
home cooked meals and a place to rest,
my troubled head when you're away,
I've passed the test, I've earned an A,
not just in school, but in life,
you'll always be right by my side.
To help me show, hope to all,
that are lost and sick in this dying world.
I'll use the love you left behind,
I'll change their minds, I'll change their minds.

I hope, I hope you smile,
when you look down on me.
I hope you smile.

This can't, we won't know.
I hope that I make you proud.

This is not what it is, only baby scars.
We need your love like a boy needs his mother's side.

This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side.


Here is the link to download their album, I hope you enjoy it, I know I am.


With Peace and Love, Always


Sam