Hey everybody, I hope everything is good on your end. I, myself, am going insane. I'm going in for surgery tomorrow at 11:15 AM EST. And I've never been more afraid in my life.
When I was little, I hit my elbow on the side mirror of my aunt's car. Turns out I tore the covering of the Ulnar nerve in you elbow, which is over the funny bone. When I bend my arm, this nerve pops over the funny bone, creating some discomfort. So now I'm getting it taken care of. And despite how I come off, I am terrified. I'd rather swim five 500s (100 lengths of the pool) than go in for surgery tomorrow. I'm freaking out and can't calm down.
Which brings me to our topic. Fear. That which makes your hair stand on end. What keeps you awake at night. Terror. I'm afraid of a ton of stuff. Spiders. Heights. Death. Surgery. But I've accepted a lot of that stuff. Except surgery. When I think about tomorrow, I envision the surgery that was performed on Jigsaw in Saw III. Really great right? Anyway.
Fear belittles us. Makes us afraid to speak. Case: there is a person at my school, who we'll call Jane Doe for now, and it's darn near impossible to talk to her. I've had plenty of chances, but haven't been able to do it yet. But I will tomorrow, because I'm going to school for that reason.
Fear stops us from being who we truly are. We are afraid to do things that we like because we are scared of what people will think about us. Well, I'm going to walk around and play Pokemon. I dun currr. Anyway. I seem to be getting sidetracked a ton. So I think I'm going to cut myself off. I'm watching Step Brothers and just trying to relax. I'm playing the "Stuff-Your-Face-Until-Midnight" game. Then it's an all water diet until surgery. Geez oh man. I'm scared.
The Bird and the Worm- The Used
That song seems perfect for this post. I'll be tweeting the whole affair tomorrow, so follow me @samthecarrier
With Peace, Love, and a touch of Fear,
Sam
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Eris and Dsynomia
Hello everybody, sorry for not posting anything for a bit. I've been having writer's block and being addicted to Pokemon again... But it's all good. Yesterday I went to Borders with Tom and came to the conclusion that we are turning into Coffee Shop Kids, and I'm okay with that. I like my coffee. Today, I went to go see Alice in Wonderland again with Robby and then basically slept all day. Very productive if you ask me. So now I'm sitting here listening to The Devil Wears Prada and writing.
A very particular person has reared her ugly head again, and that isn't sitting well with me. Morgan Balodis. Bane of my existence. This girl was in love with me freshman year and thinks that we can be friends even though she calls two of my friends "Bipolar B****es" and treat them like crap. So this post is going to be all about HATE
What gives people the idea that they are superior? We're all the same, sinners and liars. So why does Morgan believe she is so much better than Sherron and Emilie? Maybe it's that tumor pushing on her skull. Morgan has this "tumor" supposedly, on her brain. And I don't want to sound mean, I really don't, but I believe this "tumor" doesn't exist. Reason being, she is PROUD of it. And they operated on it, she came back, and she looked fine. They would have had to cut her, but she wasn't missing hair or anything. In fact, her hair was the same exact Peanut Butter and Jelly looking mess that it was when she left.
Maybe it's a character flaw. Hitler exterminated 600,000 Jews in World War II for almost no reason. Just a deep hatred for them. America's Klu Klux Klan lynched African Americans because the KKK despised them. Heck, the British shipped all their convicts and handicapped to Australia because they were unwanted.
Could it be that it is human nature to fear and prosecute what we don't understand. Who really knows. God does, but I've got a long time before I can ask him (knock on wood) face to face.
I'm leaving you with Asking Alexandria's Alerion. It's intense. And angry. Please mind the language.
Alerion- Asking Alexandria
Fuck this!
Cross my heart, I hope you die
Left by the roadside
Karma's a bitch, right?
Cross my heart, I hope you die
Left by the roadside
Karma's a bitch, right?
Short, sweet and to the point eh? Here's a video, enjoy!
With Peace, Love, and a bit of Anger,
Sam
A very particular person has reared her ugly head again, and that isn't sitting well with me. Morgan Balodis. Bane of my existence. This girl was in love with me freshman year and thinks that we can be friends even though she calls two of my friends "Bipolar B****es" and treat them like crap. So this post is going to be all about HATE
What gives people the idea that they are superior? We're all the same, sinners and liars. So why does Morgan believe she is so much better than Sherron and Emilie? Maybe it's that tumor pushing on her skull. Morgan has this "tumor" supposedly, on her brain. And I don't want to sound mean, I really don't, but I believe this "tumor" doesn't exist. Reason being, she is PROUD of it. And they operated on it, she came back, and she looked fine. They would have had to cut her, but she wasn't missing hair or anything. In fact, her hair was the same exact Peanut Butter and Jelly looking mess that it was when she left.
Maybe it's a character flaw. Hitler exterminated 600,000 Jews in World War II for almost no reason. Just a deep hatred for them. America's Klu Klux Klan lynched African Americans because the KKK despised them. Heck, the British shipped all their convicts and handicapped to Australia because they were unwanted.
Could it be that it is human nature to fear and prosecute what we don't understand. Who really knows. God does, but I've got a long time before I can ask him (knock on wood) face to face.
I'm leaving you with Asking Alexandria's Alerion. It's intense. And angry. Please mind the language.
Alerion- Asking Alexandria
Fuck this!
Cross my heart, I hope you die
Left by the roadside
Karma's a bitch, right?
Cross my heart, I hope you die
Left by the roadside
Karma's a bitch, right?
Short, sweet and to the point eh? Here's a video, enjoy!
With Peace, Love, and a bit of Anger,
Sam
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
And I Have A Question....
What is Love?
NeverShoutNever's song What is Love? grabbed me the first time I heard it. It is my "Story of my Life" song. It's about Christofer Drew's parent's divorce and how now he doesn't really know what love is anymore. It's a hard thing to talk or write about, love is. It's a tricky concept. Everybody thinks that they feel it, but then get shocked when their relationship fails. I know for a fact that I would give ANYTHING to protect my friends and family. Maybe that's love? I think that when you know you would die for that person, and would do anything to be with them, that is love. I would cross any ocean, slay any beast, climb any mountain to protect those who mean the world to me.
Now there are a lot of people out in the world that believe that love is based on sex *cough RAPPERS cough* or somebody's appearance *cough cough* This simply cannot be true. I love my cousins. I would never sleep with them. Ick. I love a bunch of kids at school, but I'd never sleep with them. So that pretty much destroys the rapper's argument. We all have the ability to love while keeping in in our pants.
Love is a trickster. It plays with our emotions and then crushes them. A lot of musicians write about the polar extremes, Can't Stand It by NeverShoutNever for happiness and You Told Me You Loved Me by Cinematic Sunrise for the not so happy times. I find that it's a lot easier to be happy if you just throw love to the wind and live life how you want. Love will eventually come back, as it always does, because everything works out in the end. God has a funny way of doing things, trust me.
To those hopeless romantics, calm it down already.
To the Twilight fans, love isn't always going to be Edward Cullen. Vampires are NOTHING like him. Watch 30 Days of Night or Spark's the Rescue's We Love Like Vampires. Vampires burn in sunlight. But I digress.
Keep your heads up my friends, I've got your back, ALWAYS.
What is Love?- NeverShoutNever
In a snitch like this
You gotta think and I don't think you
Think about the way he thinks
And I know you live life
For yourself
But it all comes down to
The way you help
And I know your life is such a hell
You wake up early and you work until
You have your drinks at 5 o'clock
The hours blend and your thoughts
All haunt your hopes, your dreams
Your everything
Well, mama, I hope
I dream that you won't leave
And I have a question:
What is love?
What is love?
Oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh
Is it giving up?
'Cause that's not how you
Raised me, yeah.
In a snitch like this you gotta think
And I don't think you think
About the way she thinks
And I know you work hard everyday
But it all comes down
To the way you're paid
And I know you're oh so sorry dad
I truly believe that you're a better man
Than to share one kiss and then give away
From the love you come home everyday
Your hopes, your dreams, your everything
Well daddy, I hope, I dream
That she won't leave
And I have a question:
What is love?
What is love?
Oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh
Is it giving up?
'Cause that's not how you
Raised me
And what is love?
What is love?
Oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh
See, I don't know anymore
I used to look
Up to
That love
For the incredible video, click right here.
NeverShoutNever's song What is Love? grabbed me the first time I heard it. It is my "Story of my Life" song. It's about Christofer Drew's parent's divorce and how now he doesn't really know what love is anymore. It's a hard thing to talk or write about, love is. It's a tricky concept. Everybody thinks that they feel it, but then get shocked when their relationship fails. I know for a fact that I would give ANYTHING to protect my friends and family. Maybe that's love? I think that when you know you would die for that person, and would do anything to be with them, that is love. I would cross any ocean, slay any beast, climb any mountain to protect those who mean the world to me.
Now there are a lot of people out in the world that believe that love is based on sex *cough RAPPERS cough* or somebody's appearance *cough cough* This simply cannot be true. I love my cousins. I would never sleep with them. Ick. I love a bunch of kids at school, but I'd never sleep with them. So that pretty much destroys the rapper's argument. We all have the ability to love while keeping in in our pants.
Love is a trickster. It plays with our emotions and then crushes them. A lot of musicians write about the polar extremes, Can't Stand It by NeverShoutNever for happiness and You Told Me You Loved Me by Cinematic Sunrise for the not so happy times. I find that it's a lot easier to be happy if you just throw love to the wind and live life how you want. Love will eventually come back, as it always does, because everything works out in the end. God has a funny way of doing things, trust me.
To those hopeless romantics, calm it down already.
To the Twilight fans, love isn't always going to be Edward Cullen. Vampires are NOTHING like him. Watch 30 Days of Night or Spark's the Rescue's We Love Like Vampires. Vampires burn in sunlight. But I digress.
Keep your heads up my friends, I've got your back, ALWAYS.
What is Love?- NeverShoutNever
In a snitch like this
You gotta think and I don't think you
Think about the way he thinks
And I know you live life
For yourself
But it all comes down to
The way you help
And I know your life is such a hell
You wake up early and you work until
You have your drinks at 5 o'clock
The hours blend and your thoughts
All haunt your hopes, your dreams
Your everything
Well, mama, I hope
I dream that you won't leave
And I have a question:
What is love?
What is love?
Oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh
Is it giving up?
'Cause that's not how you
Raised me, yeah.
In a snitch like this you gotta think
And I don't think you think
About the way she thinks
And I know you work hard everyday
But it all comes down
To the way you're paid
And I know you're oh so sorry dad
I truly believe that you're a better man
Than to share one kiss and then give away
From the love you come home everyday
Your hopes, your dreams, your everything
Well daddy, I hope, I dream
That she won't leave
And I have a question:
What is love?
What is love?
Oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh
Is it giving up?
'Cause that's not how you
Raised me
And what is love?
What is love?
Oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh
See, I don't know anymore
I used to look
Up to
That love
For the incredible video, click right here.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Together, Forever, Whatever They Say
Good morning! This morning has been super productive so far. I ran, showered and made my coffee all in an hour. I feel so productive right now. Today's schedule reads as: Run (done!) Shower (Done!) Make coffee (done!) Write (Working on it) Fragile X Syndrome powerpoint, and my Vitamin A powerpoint. I will get those projects done this weekend. It felt so good to run, I like it when I feel sore because I know I was doing something right!
I've been thinking about friends a lot this morning. Especially during my run. I've been in retrospect mode a lot lately, which I guess is kinda cool. We gain friends, we lose friends, but your actual friends will stand next to you when your entire world is in flames and crumbling.
Tom- The Words "Best Friend" Become Redefined came on during my run and it made me think of all the great things that have happened during our friendship. The Chiodos concert, Blue Pants, driving the wrong way down Brecksville road and ending up in Independence, that day Lexi had her sleepover and the nine year olds tried to murder me. All great times. I'm glad I have you as a friend.
Mary- Where do I start? The snow globe? Going 90 on the interstate? Watchmen? Who knows. But one thing is fo sho. You are amazing. I'm so glad that we are friends because I can't see us being related but not being friends. We need to drive around blasting angry music again, because that is way more fun than just sitting around. Love you dear.
Grace- Jeez oh man. Yo and your sister, I have no clue what to say. "YOU COULD'VE PARALYZED ME!!!" Maybe that's a good start.Or how you are like Ron Weasley and snog Ryan Chambers than get all salty. You and your sister are constant sources of entertainment and I love scavenger hunts with you two. From Fall Out Boy to Star Wars, you girls are female versions of myself. I'm so proud of all that you've done this year and can't wait to go to CSU with you guys.
Theresa-We've had a rough year. But we made it through, and that's all that matters. You come home soon and I'd love to hang out with you, even if it's only to play A Favor House Atlantic. You and me will go to a Coheed and Cambria concert if it's the last thing we do. I hate that you go to OU, you should legit come to CSU and we can hang out everyday.
Hayley- We haven't known each other long, but you're pretty awesome. That facebook conversation with Faith's boyfriend was AMAZING. We seriously need to play Lazer Tag and watch The Crazies. Kristyn texted me last night saying "I just saw a preview for The Crazies and that is not me or my family!" Instant lols were had.
Sarah Freakin Willmann- I MISS YOU SO DANG MUCH. You better swim next year, 'cuz I need a bus buddy. I have to say, out of all the Sophomores on the team this year, you and Cam were my favorites. Our bus rides this year with Pat and Smith were my favorite part of the season. I have to tell you, the bus ride from Cloverleaf was my all time favorite, mainly because of Smith's Toddler's in Tiaras rant. You should totes swim Oakridge so we can hang out everyday.
Wow, writing this, I've come to realize that you guys are my really good friends. I can tell any of you anything and I know you'll help me out. I love you kids. Tom, I mean that in a No-Homo way. I'm not Vince.
Power Point is calling my name, so I must answer it's call. I'll post something of substance next week, probably Monday.
With Peace and Love,
Sam
I've been thinking about friends a lot this morning. Especially during my run. I've been in retrospect mode a lot lately, which I guess is kinda cool. We gain friends, we lose friends, but your actual friends will stand next to you when your entire world is in flames and crumbling.
Tom- The Words "Best Friend" Become Redefined came on during my run and it made me think of all the great things that have happened during our friendship. The Chiodos concert, Blue Pants, driving the wrong way down Brecksville road and ending up in Independence, that day Lexi had her sleepover and the nine year olds tried to murder me. All great times. I'm glad I have you as a friend.
Mary- Where do I start? The snow globe? Going 90 on the interstate? Watchmen? Who knows. But one thing is fo sho. You are amazing. I'm so glad that we are friends because I can't see us being related but not being friends. We need to drive around blasting angry music again, because that is way more fun than just sitting around. Love you dear.
Grace- Jeez oh man. Yo and your sister, I have no clue what to say. "YOU COULD'VE PARALYZED ME!!!" Maybe that's a good start.Or how you are like Ron Weasley and snog Ryan Chambers than get all salty. You and your sister are constant sources of entertainment and I love scavenger hunts with you two. From Fall Out Boy to Star Wars, you girls are female versions of myself. I'm so proud of all that you've done this year and can't wait to go to CSU with you guys.
Theresa-We've had a rough year. But we made it through, and that's all that matters. You come home soon and I'd love to hang out with you, even if it's only to play A Favor House Atlantic. You and me will go to a Coheed and Cambria concert if it's the last thing we do. I hate that you go to OU, you should legit come to CSU and we can hang out everyday.
Hayley- We haven't known each other long, but you're pretty awesome. That facebook conversation with Faith's boyfriend was AMAZING. We seriously need to play Lazer Tag and watch The Crazies. Kristyn texted me last night saying "I just saw a preview for The Crazies and that is not me or my family!" Instant lols were had.
Sarah Freakin Willmann- I MISS YOU SO DANG MUCH. You better swim next year, 'cuz I need a bus buddy. I have to say, out of all the Sophomores on the team this year, you and Cam were my favorites. Our bus rides this year with Pat and Smith were my favorite part of the season. I have to tell you, the bus ride from Cloverleaf was my all time favorite, mainly because of Smith's Toddler's in Tiaras rant. You should totes swim Oakridge so we can hang out everyday.
Wow, writing this, I've come to realize that you guys are my really good friends. I can tell any of you anything and I know you'll help me out. I love you kids. Tom, I mean that in a No-Homo way. I'm not Vince.
Power Point is calling my name, so I must answer it's call. I'll post something of substance next week, probably Monday.
With Peace and Love,
Sam
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Time
Hello everyone. I hope the week has been enjoyable so far. On Monday my sister went to audition for Sleeping Beauty, and I went with her. Just before she went down to audition, I figured "What the heck." and went to audition with her. I sang "My Friends" from Sweeney Todd, purely as a joke. Well. Now I get to be Prince Plump and wear a fat suit. Nice going Sam. Anyway.
I feel like time is just flying by. I wake up, school, homework, dinner, LOST, bed. It's a crazy life and I heard a song the other day that just stopped me in my tracks. It's called But I Can't by Plug In Stereo. It reminds me of the times we can't have back. I would give anything to go back to the days when losing a game was the worst thing I knew. It seems like the world beats us up, strips us of our childish selves and leaves us cold and disenchanted. It sucks. Big time. But there is hope. We can still be that child again. Imagination never leaves us, we just forget that it exists. Imagination, what an awesome concept. It sets us apart from everything else on Earth. We can imagine other lands, other worlds, other beings. Imagination, it's what keeps me up after I watch Paranormal Activity for the first time and think a demon's in my house when it is just acorns falling on my house. Imagination, it's what makes you YOU. Children are so pure, so innocent, so happy, so oblivious to the mess that people call life. My aunt had a baby girl named Addison Rose not too long ago, and my cousin Grace and I were talking about how sad it is that someday, somebody's going to hurt that baby girl that change the way she views life forever.
Today, I was so relaxed all day, with the exception of Biology II, which I'll never understand, so I just kinda give up in that class. But I was happy all day, the weather here is so nice and it just puts me in an overall good mood :D I'm sitting here writing this and listening to Coheed's new track Here We are Juggernaut, which is amazing by the way, and feeling quite happy overall. Well, I think I'll go play some Half Life: Portal or spend some time outside!
I'm posting the But I Can't lyrics, Plug in Stereo is amazing!
But I Can't
ake me back to the days when I could not wait to wake up,
weird hair, didn't care what to wear cause no matter what, I still felt loved.
Take me back to the days, when losing a game was the worst thing I knew.
Getting thrills off of little stuff that now, I just can't do.
I can't stand growing up, I'm going too fast.
Well just a second I miss my past.
Yeah being old has its perks,
but I miss my old friends,
and the way the she used to be
I wanna start again. x2
I miss, everything.
I wish that you could.
Take me back to the days when school wasn't a chore.
Now I have to play hookie to hide from the things that I used to not want to ignore.
Take me back to, the world that I knew before, the love was taken.
Another smile drop, listen while time stops now....
I can't stand growing up, I'm going too fast.
Well just a second I miss my past.
Yeah being old has its perks,
but I miss my old friends,
and the way the shit used to be
I wanna start again. x2
Take me back to the days when I hated to fall asleep.
If I could I know I would spend a day under my sheets.
Take me back to the life, when I can know myself again.
I wish I could, I wish I could,
but I can't
With Peace, Love, and Smiles,
Sam
I feel like time is just flying by. I wake up, school, homework, dinner, LOST, bed. It's a crazy life and I heard a song the other day that just stopped me in my tracks. It's called But I Can't by Plug In Stereo. It reminds me of the times we can't have back. I would give anything to go back to the days when losing a game was the worst thing I knew. It seems like the world beats us up, strips us of our childish selves and leaves us cold and disenchanted. It sucks. Big time. But there is hope. We can still be that child again. Imagination never leaves us, we just forget that it exists. Imagination, what an awesome concept. It sets us apart from everything else on Earth. We can imagine other lands, other worlds, other beings. Imagination, it's what keeps me up after I watch Paranormal Activity for the first time and think a demon's in my house when it is just acorns falling on my house. Imagination, it's what makes you YOU. Children are so pure, so innocent, so happy, so oblivious to the mess that people call life. My aunt had a baby girl named Addison Rose not too long ago, and my cousin Grace and I were talking about how sad it is that someday, somebody's going to hurt that baby girl that change the way she views life forever.
Today, I was so relaxed all day, with the exception of Biology II, which I'll never understand, so I just kinda give up in that class. But I was happy all day, the weather here is so nice and it just puts me in an overall good mood :D I'm sitting here writing this and listening to Coheed's new track Here We are Juggernaut, which is amazing by the way, and feeling quite happy overall. Well, I think I'll go play some Half Life: Portal or spend some time outside!
I'm posting the But I Can't lyrics, Plug in Stereo is amazing!
But I Can't
ake me back to the days when I could not wait to wake up,
weird hair, didn't care what to wear cause no matter what, I still felt loved.
Take me back to the days, when losing a game was the worst thing I knew.
Getting thrills off of little stuff that now, I just can't do.
I can't stand growing up, I'm going too fast.
Well just a second I miss my past.
Yeah being old has its perks,
but I miss my old friends,
and the way the she used to be
I wanna start again. x2
I miss, everything.
I wish that you could.
Take me back to the days when school wasn't a chore.
Now I have to play hookie to hide from the things that I used to not want to ignore.
Take me back to, the world that I knew before, the love was taken.
Another smile drop, listen while time stops now....
I can't stand growing up, I'm going too fast.
Well just a second I miss my past.
Yeah being old has its perks,
but I miss my old friends,
and the way the shit used to be
I wanna start again. x2
Take me back to the days when I hated to fall asleep.
If I could I know I would spend a day under my sheets.
Take me back to the life, when I can know myself again.
I wish I could, I wish I could,
but I can't
With Peace, Love, and Smiles,
Sam
Sunday, March 7, 2010
"Best Friends?" Hmm.
We all have someone in our life we can run to. Confide in, trust. Some people have three or four of these people, while others only have one. I had four. Had being the key word. Now I have three, and I love them to death. The other one, she kinda fell away.
They say college is a new experience and people gain and lose friends. This one girl went off to college and I didn't hear from her for about 3 months. Then she starts texting me again and we start talking everyday again. We made a bunch of plans to hang out over her break. She comes home and I see her about three times. All of those times were at swim practice, where our time to talk was limited. The girl left without saying goodbye.
Fast forward to last week: I was facebooking a mutual friend of ours and this girl sees it and comments on it because I mentioned how I missed this girl Andie (whose facebook this was happening on) and another friend of ours. I told my old confidant that I *kinda* saw her over break, whereas I hadn't seen the two others since July. My old friend goes to post of facebook, and I quote,
"i will break the tension and say. i love you. and that a favor house atlantic came on while i was walking to class this morning. i got really excited and smiled. and then a random man thought i was smiling at him. and winked. awwwwkward. but aside from my bitterness, i do miss you. alot."
Now what she doesn't understand is how much I miss her and how much I need to talk to her again. We've gone through so much in the past years that it would truly suck for this friendship to be a wash.
If you're reading this right now, you know who you are.
The Final Cut- Coheed & Cambria:
In the final curtain call
You left me here with the coldest of feelings
Weight, kind, depression
Blessing the floor with the places you've stepped in
Will they ever measure up
To the way you left me?
Here by the roadside
The bloodiest cadaver
Marked in your words:
I'm the joke,
I'm the bastard
Here wait, so I guess that you knew
That you're a selfish little whore
I'm the selfish little whore
If I had my way I'd crush your face in the door
This is no beginning, yeah yeah
This is the final cut, open up
This is no beginning, yeah yeah
This is the final cut, I'm in love
This seems really harsh, but in ways I can relate to The Writing Writer and how he feels. I'm not calling my friend a whore. I swear on my life, she may look like one, but she isn't :) She'll know that's a joke. I'd get hit for things like that.
TAH, it's not too late, let's fix things.
They say college is a new experience and people gain and lose friends. This one girl went off to college and I didn't hear from her for about 3 months. Then she starts texting me again and we start talking everyday again. We made a bunch of plans to hang out over her break. She comes home and I see her about three times. All of those times were at swim practice, where our time to talk was limited. The girl left without saying goodbye.
Fast forward to last week: I was facebooking a mutual friend of ours and this girl sees it and comments on it because I mentioned how I missed this girl Andie (whose facebook this was happening on) and another friend of ours. I told my old confidant that I *kinda* saw her over break, whereas I hadn't seen the two others since July. My old friend goes to post of facebook, and I quote,
"i will break the tension and say. i love you. and that a favor house atlantic came on while i was walking to class this morning. i got really excited and smiled. and then a random man thought i was smiling at him. and winked. awwwwkward. but aside from my bitterness, i do miss you. alot."
Now what she doesn't understand is how much I miss her and how much I need to talk to her again. We've gone through so much in the past years that it would truly suck for this friendship to be a wash.
If you're reading this right now, you know who you are.
The Final Cut- Coheed & Cambria:
In the final curtain call
You left me here with the coldest of feelings
Weight, kind, depression
Blessing the floor with the places you've stepped in
Will they ever measure up
To the way you left me?
Here by the roadside
The bloodiest cadaver
Marked in your words:
I'm the joke,
I'm the bastard
Here wait, so I guess that you knew
That you're a selfish little whore
I'm the selfish little whore
If I had my way I'd crush your face in the door
This is no beginning, yeah yeah
This is the final cut, open up
This is no beginning, yeah yeah
This is the final cut, I'm in love
This seems really harsh, but in ways I can relate to The Writing Writer and how he feels. I'm not calling my friend a whore. I swear on my life, she may look like one, but she isn't :) She'll know that's a joke. I'd get hit for things like that.
TAH, it's not too late, let's fix things.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Dreams
I figured I would just post somethings that I would like to accomplish in my life, nothing big right now, a solid post is coming later.
1. Graduate with honors
2. Get in to Cleveland State or Florida State
3. Get my Masters in Education and History
4. Land a solid job in the South, because it doesn't really snow there.
5. Get a nice house
6. Live a happy, peaceful life
7. Find my solace in Christ
This is what I would love to have in my life. I've got my work cut out for myself don't I?
1. Graduate with honors
2. Get in to Cleveland State or Florida State
3. Get my Masters in Education and History
4. Land a solid job in the South, because it doesn't really snow there.
5. Get a nice house
6. Live a happy, peaceful life
7. Find my solace in Christ
This is what I would love to have in my life. I've got my work cut out for myself don't I?
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