Wow. It's been a minute, hasn't it? At any rate, I'm back and have millions of stories. First, I went to this year's Warped Tour. Amazing. I loved every minute of it. Confide and Attack Attack! blew me away, and I even got to meet the boys of Confide. Then I left for a ten day trip to The Wizarding World of Harry Potter, which may be the greatest thing on this Earth. It was AMAZING. The attention to detail down there was awesome. I of course bought both Harry's and Voldemort's wands, which was another great idea. I am so happy to be home, and that may be for a couple reasons. God has blessed me with the greatest, most awesome friends anybody could ask for. I love these kids with every bit of my being. And being gone really sucked, because these people are such big parts of my life.
And maybe the biggest breaking news: Sam found himself a girl!! :)
She's my sister's dance teacher, and boy, she's great. I'm not gonna go on for hours and hours about how cool she is, but I could.
Some new music for you all to check:
-Broadway
-Confide
-Attack Attack
-Miss May I
Yeah, I had planned on writing more, but I gotta get going at some point today
I have a single senior picture being taken at 4:30, then The Last Airbender with Dana :)
This post's song is Such Great Heights by Confide. Yes, it's a cover, but it'll blow your mind.
Such Great Heights
I am thinking it´s a sign
That the freckles in our eyes
Are mirror images and when we kiss
They´re perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate
That God himself did make us
Into corresponding shapes
Like puzzle pieces from the clay
And true it may seem like a stretch
But it´s thoughts like this that catch
My troubled head when you´re away
When I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road
For several weeks of shows
And when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you home
They will see us waving from such great heights
Come down now they´ll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
Come down now but we´ll stay
I tried my best to leave
This all on your machine
But the persistent beat
It sounded thin upon listening
And that frankly will not fly
You will hear the shrillest highs
And lowest lows with the windows down
When this is guiding you home
They will see us waving from such great heights
Come down now they´ll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
Come down now but we´ll stay
[guitar solo]
(Come down now)
They will see us waving from such great heights
Come down now they´ll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
Come down now but we´ll stay
With Peace, Love, and Happiness :)
Sam
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
This Is My Deepest Dream..
Hello everybody, it's been a while I know. Lots of things have happened, and there isn't enough hours in the day to discuss them all. But some good news, I've been accepted to Cleveland State University for Fall 2010! I'm very excited. I go later this month for orientation, so it won't be much longer until I'm college bound. Holy snap. So with that happening, I've been thinking about what I want to do with my life. So I made a list. So far, 18 things I want to accomplish before I bite the dust.
Here's the list:
1. Graduate from college with a Masters in Education
2. Move to a warmer climate
3. Get married
4. Have kids
5. Land a study job teaching High School History
6. Learn how to play guitar
7. Travel to Europe
8. Visit South America
9. Play Pokemon Red Version, catching all 151, and possibly leveling each to level 100
10. Take a road trip to California
11. Visit each of the 50 states
12. Reach the front row of a concert and stay there the whole time
13. Get my memorial tattoo
14. Buy a nice camera, then take a photography class
15. Write and record a decent song
16. Win an award of some sort
17. Get in shape, then stay there
18. Write a short story with chapters.
Hopefully, I can accomplish most of these before I'm 30. That'd be swell.
Well, homework and Gravity is calling, so I'm going to run. Summer is almost here, so I'll be doing this much more often.
With Peace and Love,
Sam
Friday, May 7, 2010
My Side of the Story,
Hey everybody. I figured I'd make my return in an explosive fashion. I was in a ton of trouble this week, and it's finally starting to blow over. I'm making my official statement here, and expressing how I feel about it after the fact.
About two weeks ago, I was asked to interview some guys that were entering my school's male beauty pageant. So I did. And in between two of the interviews, made my own interview. The kids helping me film these kids asked me questions and I would answer them. I said a lot of things I shouldn't have and didn't mean. I finished filming the students and put a nice little video together for the pageant last Thursday.
Fast forward past my birthday on Sunday to Tuesday afternoon.
I'm sitting in Health and the girls who helped me film the interviews came up to me and said I needed to leave and talk to Mr. Hemery. So I left and went to talk to him. He told me that he and Mrs. Pontikos (a councilor) had seen my interview. Since Mrs. Pontikos was there, his hands were tied and he had to tell the administration. They were calling what happened "Hate Speak" and there were serious consequences for that. However, Mr. Hemery had convinced the administration to let him take care of it. So instead of getting suspended and more, we were getting kicked out of Video Club (which I am the president of) and our Broadcasting Independent Study. I was devastated.
I figured the best thing to do was to talk to the principal that Hemery had talked to. I sat down with him and apologized. What did I get in return?
" I have to be honest, I believe apologies are hollow and forced. Your actions speak louder than your words. Look at your past actions."
I cannot even believe this was happening. He gave me some big long speech and I ended up leaving in worse condition than when I entered. The next day (Wednesday) I went and talked to everybody else who was involved. My councilor, Mrs. Pontikos, and Mr. Hemery. Out of our entire teaching staff at the high school, I believe I hold them to the highest honor, because I have a good relationship with all of them. Mrs. Smith and Hemery were easy, I knew that I had to apologize to them because it was needed. My apology to Hemery was so sincere because we inadvertently screwed him over. Mrs. Pontikos was the hardest because she gave me the assignment and the faith that we would make it into something incredible. I hate to say it, but I was choked up when I was talking to her. I've never been more disappointed and ashamed of myself in my entire life to be honest. Mr. Hemery destroyed the tape, and there are no real serious consequences.
What really gets me going, is that the punishment that we would've gotten, was given the a group of kids who ganged up on a freshman and sent him to the hospital yesterday when they beat the crap out of him in the hallway. They injured somebody, we said some words. Now, I'm happy we only got what we did, because anything more would've killed me.
I'm done whining. This is over and done with, so I'm moving on. I'm better than the Sam that was on that video, and I'm going to prove it.
I'm leaving you with Now or Never by Confide, because I love it.
You have my attention, there is not a question.
You know what I'm feeling.
You'll show me the way out
It's a certain feeling that I can't describe.
I see your face when I close my eyes
There's something that's missing. I'm not one to listen
You've told me before but my ears are all yours now.
It has to be now or never you can't wait on me forever
and if you know me all so well,
you know I haven't been so well lately.
I said I would try to get through this but we know it won't last forever.
Don't let me go. (Don't let me go)
This could be, this could be the death of us all
I won't keep you waiting, I know that I'm changing
This just gives me reason to prove that I'm willing
I almost close down from all that I hide.
I know things are better when you're by my side.
I'm hoping you see that I'm honestly trying to keep
my ways clean and to show you a better side
This is it, a new me for you.
A new beginning is all I can do.
If I believed in myself as much as I believe in you
this would be so much easier but it's not so come and get me.
I can't keep bringing myself down. I tear myself apart. It has to stop.
With Peace Love, and Embarrassment,
Sam
About two weeks ago, I was asked to interview some guys that were entering my school's male beauty pageant. So I did. And in between two of the interviews, made my own interview. The kids helping me film these kids asked me questions and I would answer them. I said a lot of things I shouldn't have and didn't mean. I finished filming the students and put a nice little video together for the pageant last Thursday.
Fast forward past my birthday on Sunday to Tuesday afternoon.
I'm sitting in Health and the girls who helped me film the interviews came up to me and said I needed to leave and talk to Mr. Hemery. So I left and went to talk to him. He told me that he and Mrs. Pontikos (a councilor) had seen my interview. Since Mrs. Pontikos was there, his hands were tied and he had to tell the administration. They were calling what happened "Hate Speak" and there were serious consequences for that. However, Mr. Hemery had convinced the administration to let him take care of it. So instead of getting suspended and more, we were getting kicked out of Video Club (which I am the president of) and our Broadcasting Independent Study. I was devastated.
I figured the best thing to do was to talk to the principal that Hemery had talked to. I sat down with him and apologized. What did I get in return?
" I have to be honest, I believe apologies are hollow and forced. Your actions speak louder than your words. Look at your past actions."
I cannot even believe this was happening. He gave me some big long speech and I ended up leaving in worse condition than when I entered. The next day (Wednesday) I went and talked to everybody else who was involved. My councilor, Mrs. Pontikos, and Mr. Hemery. Out of our entire teaching staff at the high school, I believe I hold them to the highest honor, because I have a good relationship with all of them. Mrs. Smith and Hemery were easy, I knew that I had to apologize to them because it was needed. My apology to Hemery was so sincere because we inadvertently screwed him over. Mrs. Pontikos was the hardest because she gave me the assignment and the faith that we would make it into something incredible. I hate to say it, but I was choked up when I was talking to her. I've never been more disappointed and ashamed of myself in my entire life to be honest. Mr. Hemery destroyed the tape, and there are no real serious consequences.
What really gets me going, is that the punishment that we would've gotten, was given the a group of kids who ganged up on a freshman and sent him to the hospital yesterday when they beat the crap out of him in the hallway. They injured somebody, we said some words. Now, I'm happy we only got what we did, because anything more would've killed me.
I'm done whining. This is over and done with, so I'm moving on. I'm better than the Sam that was on that video, and I'm going to prove it.
I'm leaving you with Now or Never by Confide, because I love it.
You have my attention, there is not a question.
You know what I'm feeling.
You'll show me the way out
It's a certain feeling that I can't describe.
I see your face when I close my eyes
There's something that's missing. I'm not one to listen
You've told me before but my ears are all yours now.
It has to be now or never you can't wait on me forever
and if you know me all so well,
you know I haven't been so well lately.
I said I would try to get through this but we know it won't last forever.
Don't let me go. (Don't let me go)
This could be, this could be the death of us all
I won't keep you waiting, I know that I'm changing
This just gives me reason to prove that I'm willing
I almost close down from all that I hide.
I know things are better when you're by my side.
I'm hoping you see that I'm honestly trying to keep
my ways clean and to show you a better side
This is it, a new me for you.
A new beginning is all I can do.
If I believed in myself as much as I believe in you
this would be so much easier but it's not so come and get me.
I can't keep bringing myself down. I tear myself apart. It has to stop.
With Peace Love, and Embarrassment,
Sam
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Hey kids....
I'm in a bit of trouble. I'll try writing about it all tomorrow. It's not as bad as it could've been, but I'm really lucky.
-Sam
-Sam
Friday, April 23, 2010
I'd Like to Make This Post About...
The fact that I am still alive. Look for something of value and worth in the coming week
-Sam
-Sam
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
The Willing Well: Fear Through the Eyes of Madness
Hey everybody, I hope everything is good on your end. I, myself, am going insane. I'm going in for surgery tomorrow at 11:15 AM EST. And I've never been more afraid in my life.
When I was little, I hit my elbow on the side mirror of my aunt's car. Turns out I tore the covering of the Ulnar nerve in you elbow, which is over the funny bone. When I bend my arm, this nerve pops over the funny bone, creating some discomfort. So now I'm getting it taken care of. And despite how I come off, I am terrified. I'd rather swim five 500s (100 lengths of the pool) than go in for surgery tomorrow. I'm freaking out and can't calm down.
Which brings me to our topic. Fear. That which makes your hair stand on end. What keeps you awake at night. Terror. I'm afraid of a ton of stuff. Spiders. Heights. Death. Surgery. But I've accepted a lot of that stuff. Except surgery. When I think about tomorrow, I envision the surgery that was performed on Jigsaw in Saw III. Really great right? Anyway.
Fear belittles us. Makes us afraid to speak. Case: there is a person at my school, who we'll call Jane Doe for now, and it's darn near impossible to talk to her. I've had plenty of chances, but haven't been able to do it yet. But I will tomorrow, because I'm going to school for that reason.
Fear stops us from being who we truly are. We are afraid to do things that we like because we are scared of what people will think about us. Well, I'm going to walk around and play Pokemon. I dun currr. Anyway. I seem to be getting sidetracked a ton. So I think I'm going to cut myself off. I'm watching Step Brothers and just trying to relax. I'm playing the "Stuff-Your-Face-Until-Midnight" game. Then it's an all water diet until surgery. Geez oh man. I'm scared.
The Bird and the Worm- The Used
That song seems perfect for this post. I'll be tweeting the whole affair tomorrow, so follow me @samthecarrier
With Peace, Love, and a touch of Fear,
Sam
When I was little, I hit my elbow on the side mirror of my aunt's car. Turns out I tore the covering of the Ulnar nerve in you elbow, which is over the funny bone. When I bend my arm, this nerve pops over the funny bone, creating some discomfort. So now I'm getting it taken care of. And despite how I come off, I am terrified. I'd rather swim five 500s (100 lengths of the pool) than go in for surgery tomorrow. I'm freaking out and can't calm down.
Which brings me to our topic. Fear. That which makes your hair stand on end. What keeps you awake at night. Terror. I'm afraid of a ton of stuff. Spiders. Heights. Death. Surgery. But I've accepted a lot of that stuff. Except surgery. When I think about tomorrow, I envision the surgery that was performed on Jigsaw in Saw III. Really great right? Anyway.
Fear belittles us. Makes us afraid to speak. Case: there is a person at my school, who we'll call Jane Doe for now, and it's darn near impossible to talk to her. I've had plenty of chances, but haven't been able to do it yet. But I will tomorrow, because I'm going to school for that reason.
Fear stops us from being who we truly are. We are afraid to do things that we like because we are scared of what people will think about us. Well, I'm going to walk around and play Pokemon. I dun currr. Anyway. I seem to be getting sidetracked a ton. So I think I'm going to cut myself off. I'm watching Step Brothers and just trying to relax. I'm playing the "Stuff-Your-Face-Until-Midnight" game. Then it's an all water diet until surgery. Geez oh man. I'm scared.
The Bird and the Worm- The Used
That song seems perfect for this post. I'll be tweeting the whole affair tomorrow, so follow me @samthecarrier
With Peace, Love, and a touch of Fear,
Sam
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Eris and Dsynomia
Hello everybody, sorry for not posting anything for a bit. I've been having writer's block and being addicted to Pokemon again... But it's all good. Yesterday I went to Borders with Tom and came to the conclusion that we are turning into Coffee Shop Kids, and I'm okay with that. I like my coffee. Today, I went to go see Alice in Wonderland again with Robby and then basically slept all day. Very productive if you ask me. So now I'm sitting here listening to The Devil Wears Prada and writing.
A very particular person has reared her ugly head again, and that isn't sitting well with me. Morgan Balodis. Bane of my existence. This girl was in love with me freshman year and thinks that we can be friends even though she calls two of my friends "Bipolar B****es" and treat them like crap. So this post is going to be all about HATE
What gives people the idea that they are superior? We're all the same, sinners and liars. So why does Morgan believe she is so much better than Sherron and Emilie? Maybe it's that tumor pushing on her skull. Morgan has this "tumor" supposedly, on her brain. And I don't want to sound mean, I really don't, but I believe this "tumor" doesn't exist. Reason being, she is PROUD of it. And they operated on it, she came back, and she looked fine. They would have had to cut her, but she wasn't missing hair or anything. In fact, her hair was the same exact Peanut Butter and Jelly looking mess that it was when she left.
Maybe it's a character flaw. Hitler exterminated 600,000 Jews in World War II for almost no reason. Just a deep hatred for them. America's Klu Klux Klan lynched African Americans because the KKK despised them. Heck, the British shipped all their convicts and handicapped to Australia because they were unwanted.
Could it be that it is human nature to fear and prosecute what we don't understand. Who really knows. God does, but I've got a long time before I can ask him (knock on wood) face to face.
I'm leaving you with Asking Alexandria's Alerion. It's intense. And angry. Please mind the language.
Alerion- Asking Alexandria
Fuck this!
Cross my heart, I hope you die
Left by the roadside
Karma's a bitch, right?
Cross my heart, I hope you die
Left by the roadside
Karma's a bitch, right?
Short, sweet and to the point eh? Here's a video, enjoy!
With Peace, Love, and a bit of Anger,
Sam
A very particular person has reared her ugly head again, and that isn't sitting well with me. Morgan Balodis. Bane of my existence. This girl was in love with me freshman year and thinks that we can be friends even though she calls two of my friends "Bipolar B****es" and treat them like crap. So this post is going to be all about HATE
What gives people the idea that they are superior? We're all the same, sinners and liars. So why does Morgan believe she is so much better than Sherron and Emilie? Maybe it's that tumor pushing on her skull. Morgan has this "tumor" supposedly, on her brain. And I don't want to sound mean, I really don't, but I believe this "tumor" doesn't exist. Reason being, she is PROUD of it. And they operated on it, she came back, and she looked fine. They would have had to cut her, but she wasn't missing hair or anything. In fact, her hair was the same exact Peanut Butter and Jelly looking mess that it was when she left.
Maybe it's a character flaw. Hitler exterminated 600,000 Jews in World War II for almost no reason. Just a deep hatred for them. America's Klu Klux Klan lynched African Americans because the KKK despised them. Heck, the British shipped all their convicts and handicapped to Australia because they were unwanted.
Could it be that it is human nature to fear and prosecute what we don't understand. Who really knows. God does, but I've got a long time before I can ask him (knock on wood) face to face.
I'm leaving you with Asking Alexandria's Alerion. It's intense. And angry. Please mind the language.
Alerion- Asking Alexandria
Fuck this!
Cross my heart, I hope you die
Left by the roadside
Karma's a bitch, right?
Cross my heart, I hope you die
Left by the roadside
Karma's a bitch, right?
Short, sweet and to the point eh? Here's a video, enjoy!
With Peace, Love, and a bit of Anger,
Sam
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