We all have someone in our life we can run to. Confide in, trust. Some people have three or four of these people, while others only have one. I had four. Had being the key word. Now I have three, and I love them to death. The other one, she kinda fell away.
They say college is a new experience and people gain and lose friends. This one girl went off to college and I didn't hear from her for about 3 months. Then she starts texting me again and we start talking everyday again. We made a bunch of plans to hang out over her break. She comes home and I see her about three times. All of those times were at swim practice, where our time to talk was limited. The girl left without saying goodbye.
Fast forward to last week: I was facebooking a mutual friend of ours and this girl sees it and comments on it because I mentioned how I missed this girl Andie (whose facebook this was happening on) and another friend of ours. I told my old confidant that I *kinda* saw her over break, whereas I hadn't seen the two others since July. My old friend goes to post of facebook, and I quote,
"i will break the tension and say. i love you. and that a favor house atlantic came on while i was walking to class this morning. i got really excited and smiled. and then a random man thought i was smiling at him. and winked. awwwwkward. but aside from my bitterness, i do miss you. alot."
Now what she doesn't understand is how much I miss her and how much I need to talk to her again. We've gone through so much in the past years that it would truly suck for this friendship to be a wash.
If you're reading this right now, you know who you are.
The Final Cut- Coheed & Cambria:
In the final curtain call
You left me here with the coldest of feelings
Weight, kind, depression
Blessing the floor with the places you've stepped in
Will they ever measure up
To the way you left me?
Here by the roadside
The bloodiest cadaver
Marked in your words:
I'm the joke,
I'm the bastard
Here wait, so I guess that you knew
That you're a selfish little whore
I'm the selfish little whore
If I had my way I'd crush your face in the door
This is no beginning, yeah yeah
This is the final cut, open up
This is no beginning, yeah yeah
This is the final cut, I'm in love
This seems really harsh, but in ways I can relate to The Writing Writer and how he feels. I'm not calling my friend a whore. I swear on my life, she may look like one, but she isn't :) She'll know that's a joke. I'd get hit for things like that.
TAH, it's not too late, let's fix things.
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i love you. and its not too late. people drift. but the truest of friends can still pick up where they left off. i like the song, and the messages in it. i hope you two work things out!
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I'm sorry :(. I can't wait to actually listen to that song (currently in a library with no headphones...probably a bad idea to do that now), but I love the lyrics. I love dark music...you might like "Dead Memories" by Slipknot as well.
ReplyDeleteBut anyway, about your friend...best friends are forever, so I really really REALLY hope she comes back. Boy-girl friendships are beautiful in a way that girl-girl and boy-boy friendships just can't compete with. There's something amazing about them...they're like the best-kept secret, too, because so many people are afraid of being "just friends." I would be crushed if I ever lost my best friend and brother (Edward*), so I can definitely relate to this. I'll pray for the both of you for sure. Sometimes that college transition is brutal, but I really hope you make it. A lot of times "starting a new life" is overwhelming, and for a time one tends to abandon the high school friends. I think for the most part the college student eventually comes to his or her senses. I'm not in college yet, so I'm not sure, but some of my college friends became more distant and then came back, so maybe the same will happen to you. When you're super tight, though...typically it works out eventually.
I have an update, shortly after posting this, I sent her the link and she messaged me on facebook saying that she was crying. I texted her and we straightened everything out. I'm so glad that we did because I can't imagine not having her in my life.
ReplyDeleteTheresa Ann, I missed you so much.
Good eye sniper, you shoot, I'll run :)
I missed you dear. More than words can say
Oh Sam I'm so glad! That's so good that things are ok now, I know how close she is with your whole family!
ReplyDeleteAnd that's so weird to see a "final curtain call" as something leaving you depressed. Curtain calls for me are always a bit nostalgic, but ultimately full of pride, joy, excitement, too many other emotions. It's so interesting to look at it with that connotation--I hope my last one won't be like that!
YESSSS i am so glad you two made up!!!! EXCELLENT :)
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